You're never too old to learn a lesson. whatever bad
happened, happened, there's no way you can go back in time and not make the
mistake so its wise to promise yourself not to repeat the same mistake again
and move on with your life. Its not always necessary that mistakes are made in
a relationship, no right now I’m not talkin about mistakes made in
relationship, I guess I have started thinking way beyond relationship these
days, may be I’ve grown up or may be I’ve just learnt a lesson…..
There are times when you make a decision where you don’t use
your brain and realize later on that you jumped into a decision without looking
at its pros and cons, and there is now way you can change it even if you want
to, well live with it for you were the one who made the decision. That is what happens
when you make a decision on your own, there will be no one to blame !
Its now always necessary that you need to suffer for the
decisions that you made. Now you know what I’m talking about J yea a relationship,
looks like I’ve not grown up at the end. I’m still that school kid who liked
the most beautiful girl of the class and had to guts to go and confess or am I the
guy who was so eager to have a girlfriend for the first time in life that
without even thinking for a second accepted the first proposal by the first
girl that proposed me! Well might be I’ve grown a little but its not me to
judge for my judgements have rarely been praised and even rarely fruitful. Althought
no matter how mature you think you have been or how grown up you think of
yourself, you will always remain that kid who people look down to, no matter
watever you have achieved now or whatever you have gone thru in life,
regardless all those hard time you faced in life and overcome but still you
will remain that kid whom people never gave the appreciation that you deserved.
Deep down you might know that you are that someone who can achieve the best of
the best and you deserve to be respected but that doesnot matter shit to
people. You might feel as the most genious
bastard around and the most classy ass but who gives a shit!
When you are talking about relationship and class keep in
mind that both need to go hand in hand. If you are in a relationship with
someone without class, you will end up breaking up after exactly 2 years and 8
months after your relationship started. How do I know it??? Well I’m an smart
ass, who cares wether you think the same or not I feel I’m an smart ass and that’s more than enough
for me to feel good. Now the question comes wether you feel good about it or
nto well all I have to say about that is live with it, if you don’t like it
feel freee to not continue reading it. I don’t give a rat’s ass wether you are happy
with watever I write or now, and why should i? at least that much I have learnt
in my life that the more you wanna please someone in life the more u end up
screwing up and hurting yourself so better live your life the way you want so
that u don’t hurt yourself at least and talking about people you hurt..screw
them, if people are meant to be in your life than they will be if not no matter
how much you try they will always find and excuse and a good damn freeway to
run away from your life. Bitter truth again.
I can talk about all the above shit so confidently coz I’ve
been through all of them every single one of them. And I know how it feels, frankly
speaking I know how bad it feels. I write these shits only when I feel the need
of writing, normally I’m not the kind of guy who writes for someone else to
read, I write for myself. I write so that I myself could read it later on and
see how big dumb ass I was coz of a small situation. I know you are getting all
confused, u might curse me for writing it and even more laughing at the shit
that I took time to write but make no difference to me, you barely know me and
more importantly you cant even imagine what I’ve been through and what lead me
to write this shit.
I don’t know what is the theme of this shit of what I’m
tryna say but all I know is I felt like pouring my words, I needed someone to
listen to my shit but as by now u must have realized that I got no one with
whom I could share these things I am just WRITING it.
Don’t get the wrong idea when I said I have no one to tell
these things. No I’m not a lonely guy with beard and moustaches sitting on a
dark room writing it. I’ve got numerous friends and more that that I always am
surrounded by people, but that doesont mean that I have someone who’s got time
to listen to me and more importantly understand my shit. If they just listen
and don’t understand it that makes no sense..and to understand what I’m tryna
say they must have at least experience what I have gone through which in this
case is almost impossible (mind you there is “almost” before the word “impossible”)
Concluding my shit in
a few words: No matter how much I try to move forward, I feel like being dragged
backwards, as the crowd is growing I’m feeling more lonlier.
I started writing it with a heavy heart and shaking hands
and as it is coming to and end I feel like the burden from my chest is slowly
being taken away and my hands are no more shakey. I guess that is why I started
writing it. The aim of doing it has been successful and the goal has been
reached. If you read it a big thankyou from my side. Adios amigos ! for now,
more shit will come the next time I feel bad about something, more importantly
when I feel bad about myself.
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