Life is Complicated

Why is life so complicated ??? may be you are also wondering or you might know the answer, anyways doesnot matter its my note hence my wish. So back to the topic, complications, problems, why? Why cant life be so easy and simple. Everyone gets what they desire, everyone’s wishes would be fulfilled, no one would be sad, no tears no worries, the world would be a better place, well may be not. There’s no limit to human expectation and if everyone’s wish really started getting fulfilled then the world would be a total mess, psychotic people surrounded by chaos. But still small wishes and desires should be fulfilled, small dreams should come true. Dreams like a new car or a beautiful home…at least everyone should get one of those.

I hope everyone at sometime in life has felt the dreams being shattered and not getting what they want, but does that means you can never get what u desire or none of your wishes will get fulfilled, will you never have a quality life or will you be this miserable everyday. I don’t think so and if you think neither will you be. Actually the thing is we want something in life and life has planned something else for us. Acutally people whose thinking matches what their life has thought for them are the happy ones but if you totally desire something different from what your life wants to give you then you are miserable. Bitter truth. Human needs and desires are volatile, as far as I know, today you want something out of your life and after a few months you want something totally different remotely similar to what you want today. So sometimes its good that you don’t get what you desire coz if your wish today gets fulfilled then the thing you want tomorrow will be lot bigger. If you are happy with a passanger sedan today tomorrow you might want an suv or a super car, and although you got the sedan you still will be miserable coz you cant have the suv.

Dreams can be unlimited, desires know no boundries, wishes can be extended to horizon and beyond but that doesont mean everything gets fulfilled, you get what you want and also that doesnot mean that you should stop dreaming, wishing and wanting things in life. Dream big, wish more, desire the largest but at the end know how much you’re worth, how much you can handle and what u deserve. Will you really be a better person if you get what you desire or will your desires will get more complicated and end up ruining your own life. For better or worse be happy with what you have coz since life’s unpredictable you can only wish that tomorrow when you wake up things will get better, life would be easier and you would be a better person. Don’t take life seriously coz onone gets out alive but that doesont mean don’t care about the future. Think about it, plan for it but also keep in mind that you might not make it tomorrow :)

Another Shit! (Unedited Version)

You're never too old to learn a lesson. whatever bad happened, happened, there's no way you can go back in time and not make the mistake so its wise to promise yourself not to repeat the same mistake again and move on with your life. Its not always necessary that mistakes are made in a relationship, no right now I’m not talkin about mistakes made in relationship, I guess I have started thinking way beyond relationship these days, may be I’ve grown up or may be I’ve just learnt a lesson…..

There are times when you make a decision where you don’t use your brain and realize later on that you jumped into a decision without looking at its pros and cons, and there is now way you can change it even if you want to, well live with it for you were the one who made the decision. That is what happens when you make a decision on your own, there will be no one to blame !

Its now always necessary that you need to suffer for the decisions that you made. Now you know what I’m talking about J yea a relationship, looks like I’ve not grown up at the end. I’m still that school kid who liked the most beautiful girl of the class and had to guts to go and confess or am I the guy who was so eager to have a girlfriend for the first time in life that without even thinking for a second accepted the first proposal by the first girl that proposed me! Well might be I’ve grown a little but its not me to judge for my judgements have rarely been praised and even rarely fruitful. Althought no matter how mature you think you have been or how grown up you think of yourself, you will always remain that kid who people look down to, no matter watever you have achieved now or whatever you have gone thru in life, regardless all those hard time you faced in life and overcome but still you will remain that kid whom people never gave the appreciation that you deserved. Deep down you might know that you are that someone who can achieve the best of the best and you deserve to be respected but that doesnot matter shit to people. You might feel  as the most genius bastard around and the most classy ass but who gives a shit!

When you are talking about relationship and class keep in mind that both need to go hand in hand. If you are in a relationship with someone without class, you will end up breaking up after exactly 2 years and 8 months after your relationship started. How do I know it??? Well I’m an smart ass, who cares wether you think the same or not I feel  I’m an smart ass and that’s more than enough for me to feel good. Now the question comes wether you feel good about it or not well all I have to say about that is live with it, if you don’t like it feel freee to not continue reading it. I don’t give a rat’s ass wether you are happy with watever I write or now, and why should i? at least that much I have learnt in my life that the more you wanna please someone in life the more u end up screwing up and hurting yourself so better live your life the way you want so that u don’t hurt yourself at least and talking about people you hurt..screw them, if people are meant to be in your life than they will be if not no matter how much you try they will always find and excuse and a good damn freeway to run away from your life. Bitter truth again.

I can talk about all the above shit so confidently coz I’ve been through all of them every single one of them. And I know how it feels, frankly speaking I know how bad it feels. I write these shits only when I feel the need of writing, normally I’m not the kind of guy who writes for someone else to read, I write for myself. I write so that I myself could read it later on and see how big dumb ass I was coz of a small situation. I know you are getting all confused, u might curse me for writing it and even more laughing at the shit that I took time to write but make no difference to me, you barely know me and more importantly you cant even imagine what I’ve been through and what lead me to write this shit.

I don’t know what is the theme of this shit of what I’m tryna say but all I know is I felt like pouring my words, I needed someone to listen to my shit but as by now u must have realized that I got no one with whom I could share these things I am just WRITING it.

Don’t get the wrong idea when I said I have no one to tell these things. No I’m not a lonely guy with beard and moustaches sitting on a dark room writing it. I’ve got numerous friends and more that that I always am surrounded by people, but that doesn't mean that I have someone who’s got time to listen to me and more importantly understand my shit. If they just listen and don’t understand it that makes no sense..and to understand what I’m tryna say they must have at least experience what I have gone through which in this case is almost impossible (mind you there is “almost” before the word “impossible”)

Concluding my shit in a few words: No matter how much I try to move forward, I feel like being dragged backwards, as the crowd is growing I’m feeling more lonelier.

I started writing it with a heavy heart and shaking hands and as it is coming to and end I feel like the burden from my chest is slowly being taken away and my hands are no more shaky. I guess that is why I started writing it. The aim of doing it has been successful and the goal has been reached. If you read it a big thankyou from my side. Adios amigos ! for now, more shit will come the next time I feel bad about something, more importantly when I feel bad about myself.

Felt Bad About Myself on 24th July 2012

You're never too old to learn a lesson. whatever bad happened, happened, there's no way you can go back in time and not make the mistake so its wise to promise yourself not to repeat the same mistake again and move on with your life. Its not always necessary that mistakes are made in a relationship, no right now I’m not talkin about mistakes made in relationship, I guess I have started thinking way beyond relationship these days, may be I’ve grown up or may be I’ve just learnt a lesson…..

There are times when you make a decision where you don’t use your brain and realize later on that you jumped into a decision without looking at its pros and cons, and there is now way you can change it even if you want to, well live with it for you were the one who made the decision. That is what happens when you make a decision on your own, there will be no one to blame !

Its now always necessary that you need to suffer for the decisions that you made. Now you know what I’m talking about J yea a relationship, looks like I’ve not grown up at the end. I’m still that school kid who liked the most beautiful girl of the class and had to guts to go and confess or am I the guy who was so eager to have a girlfriend for the first time in life that without even thinking for a second accepted the first proposal by the first girl that proposed me! Well might be I’ve grown a little but its not me to judge for my judgements have rarely been praised and even rarely fruitful. Althought no matter how mature you think you have been or how grown up you think of yourself, you will always remain that kid who people look down to, no matter watever you have achieved now or whatever you have gone thru in life, regardless all those hard time you faced in life and overcome but still you will remain that kid whom people never gave the appreciation that you deserved. Deep down you might know that you are that someone who can achieve the best of the best and you deserve to be respected but that doesnot matter shit to people. You might feel  as the most genious bastard around and the most classy ass but who gives a shit!

When you are talking about relationship and class keep in mind that both need to go hand in hand. If you are in a relationship with someone without class, you will end up breaking up after exactly 2 years and 8 months after your relationship started. How do I know it??? Well I’m an smart ass, who cares wether you think the same or not I feel  I’m an smart ass and that’s more than enough for me to feel good. Now the question comes wether you feel good about it or nto well all I have to say about that is live with it, if you don’t like it feel freee to not continue reading it. I don’t give a rat’s ass wether you are happy with watever I write or now, and why should i? at least that much I have learnt in my life that the more you wanna please someone in life the more u end up screwing up and hurting yourself so better live your life the way you want so that u don’t hurt yourself at least and talking about people you hurt..screw them, if people are meant to be in your life than they will be if not no matter how much you try they will always find and excuse and a good damn freeway to run away from your life. Bitter truth again.

I can talk about all the above shit so confidently coz I’ve been through all of them every single one of them. And I know how it feels, frankly speaking I know how bad it feels. I write these shits only when I feel the need of writing, normally I’m not the kind of guy who writes for someone else to read, I write for myself. I write so that I myself could read it later on and see how big dumb ass I was coz of a small situation. I know you are getting all confused, u might curse me for writing it and even more laughing at the shit that I took time to write but make no difference to me, you barely know me and more importantly you cant even imagine what I’ve been through and what lead me to write this shit.

I don’t know what is the theme of this shit of what I’m tryna say but all I know is I felt like pouring my words, I needed someone to listen to my shit but as by now u must have realized that I got no one with whom I could share these things I am just WRITING it.

Don’t get the wrong idea when I said I have no one to tell these things. No I’m not a lonely guy with beard and moustaches sitting on a dark room writing it. I’ve got numerous friends and more that that I always am surrounded by people, but that doesont mean that I have someone who’s got time to listen to me and more importantly understand my shit. If they just listen and don’t understand it that makes no sense..and to understand what I’m tryna say they must have at least experience what I have gone through which in this case is almost impossible (mind you there is “almost” before the word “impossible”)

Concluding my shit in a few words: No matter how much I try to move forward, I feel like being dragged backwards, as the crowd is growing I’m feeling more lonlier.

I started writing it with a heavy heart and shaking hands and as it is coming to and end I feel like the burden from my chest is slowly being taken away and my hands are no more shakey. I guess that is why I started writing it. The aim of doing it has been successful and the goal has been reached. If you read it a big thankyou from my side. Adios amigos ! for now, more shit will come the next time I feel bad about something, more importantly when I feel bad about myself.